Standing on the edge and it’s a long way down. What if I’m not on the edge, but already at the bottom? I am at the bottom. I’m on the edge. I am lost. I’m on the verge. Always on the verge and it never feels good. It is the worst feeling. I am on the verge of destruction. Is it relevant how I reach my end? Step over the edge and wait for the pain I’ll feel once I hit bottom? Or am I to lay down, as I’m already standing at the bottom? Lay down and let the darkness cover me? All irrelevant as I have come to my end. I have lost. I am no longer on the verge. I am destroyed.