Sometimes I feel powerless to help the ones I love and even more so when I’m the one in need. I learned unhealthy attachments very young age and I sometimes deny that they still exist in my adult life.
I never found drugs or alcohol as away to cope with the feelings. For a while I sex was an easy fix. But that only did so much to fill the void. 5 to 10 minutes of feeling powerful and in control then its over. Repeating the same cycle with people who were no more than an empty vessel with no real connection.
A real connection is all I was really seeking. Connections between people are powerful, uplifting and important. No one truly desires to be alone. I certainly don’t want to be alone.