Sometimes I feel powerless to help the ones I love and even more so when I’m the one in need. I learned unhealthy attachments very young age and I sometimes deny that they still exist in my adult life.
I never found drugs or alcohol as away to cope with the feelings. For a while sex was an easy fix. But that only did so much to fill the void. 10 to 20 minutes of feeling powerful and in control then its over. Repeating the same cycle with people who were no more than an empty vessel with no real connection.
A real connection is all I was really seeking. Connections between people are powerful, uplifting and important. No one truly desires to be alone. I certainly don’t want to be alone.