Am I gay? That’s a good question. I can’t really give a straight answer. No pun intended. If the question is referring to “Gay” as a lifestyle, then no I’m not. I prefer to have sex with men. I crave penis. Then yes. I'm gay. I like women too, but for a long time a … Continue reading B-Sides Track 1- It’s Gay
Category: Mr. Joseph
Writing Exercise
My pen is out You take it in your hand Grip it tight You say Lets play a game Is it hard No A slow stroke Not a drip of ink You lick your finger Rub the tip a bit I stare at the lights Waiting A speckle begins the flow As you write A … Continue reading Writing Exercise
Child Abuse Mixtape Side A
Track 1- Gravity I am damaged! That is exactly how I feel. In my life, I’ve had some great highs and felt so low. Through it all, I’m still searching for my place, purpose and peace. So, damaged is what it is more or less. How you ask? Well, I wasn’t dropped at birth or … Continue reading Child Abuse Mixtape Side A
Mold on My Bread Circa. 2018
June 9th, 2018 seems like another lifetime. It was the precipice of my downward spiral. Here's the recap via Facebook post from that day: I always feel like I’m teetering on the edge of a cliff. It’s the overwhelming feeling of wanting to end it all. I live with depression. It comes over me in … Continue reading Mold on My Bread Circa. 2018
A little bit of my truth part 2
The worst beating I've ever taken has been from myself. I have been my biggest critic, my harshest judge and whipped myself into submission. Am I good enough? People say,"yes you are" and I think, "no I'm not." But the feeling isn't of one that I can be better, rather that I am less than. … Continue reading A little bit of my truth part 2
A little bit of my truth Part 1
Sometimes I feel powerless to help the ones I love and even more so when I'm the one in need. I learned unhealthy attachments very young age and I sometimes deny that they still exist in my adult life. I never found drugs or alcohol as away to cope with the feelings. For a while … Continue reading A little bit of my truth Part 1
George Michael Sings My Heart
I'm sitting at a table near the front of the stage. Draped with a white cloth, a flicking candle and a single red rose in a vase. The lights come up on stage, dim and intimate. The room starts to fill with this angelic voice and I can see the silhouette of this most beautiful … Continue reading George Michael Sings My Heart
Baby Steps
Day 10: I want to walk but all I can do is flail my arms and legs while on my back. Oh my God what is this giant doing? Wait, it's not trying to eat me. Oh shit, I'm standing. Why the fuck are my legs so weak? Giant, don't put me down. You fucking … Continue reading Baby Steps
Notes on My Scandal
It's always interesting to me how people seem to know more about me than me. With that thought in mind, I figured I'd enlighten you all on my scandalous life. First off, I'm not Black, I'm Russian. Yes it is true. I am a vampire by night and an umpire in the off season. It … Continue reading Notes on My Scandal
Allegories of Love
I just stepped in a pile of love and it’s all over my shoe. I started making love before checking to see if I had all the ingredients. I didn’t. I left my love upstairs and I’m too lazy to go get it. Can I use peanut butter to remove this love that’s stuck in … Continue reading Allegories of Love
